| 8:57 a.m., November 03, 2003 I'm feeling like a prayer warrior lately. People keep coming to mind and I pray for them. The scary thing is that they ask me to pray for them after I already figured they needed prayer. It's creepy! I mean, it's already happened twice today! I really had some people on my mind this weekend, so I prayed for them, and today two of them asked me to pray for them. Total shock on my part, you understand. I don't even know what's going on in their lives but I can deal with that. (Actually, I do know what's going on in one of their lives, but anywayz...) It just feels great! My period of spiritual stagnation is at an end, I think. It happened when I prayed out loud in the car--I just know it. After that, I felt better and I was getting things done that I needed to do and people kept coming to mind that I needed to pray for. I know that Merl was praying for me as well and that helped, too. It made me feel better, knowing that even when I couldn't pray, someone was praying for me. It's so tough when you can't pray. It made me want to cry because I was trying so hard but things kept getting in the way and I kept procrastinating...oh, I'm too tired, I'm too busy, I'm too lazy... The thing is, I do that way too often. I think sometimes I've just got to snap out of my moods. They come on me every so often. I think that this was a continuation of this summer. This summer I was in a rotten spiritual state. After reading Amy's diary I shaped up some, but then had another downslide after about a month. Now, a month later, I'm feeling like I did one weekend last spring. That was one of my best times...Following that weekend I just felt rejuvenated, renewed. I think that the Winterfest weekend I'm going to go to will just help even more. I'm so happy all the time! Even when I'm exhausted...plus, I'm motivated to do the things I need to do...like my senior project. So, spiritual stagnation is at an end for me, but I fear it is just beginning for others. In fact, I can think of three, no, four, right now. *sigh* I'll be praying! ~Rachel~ Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints. Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should. Ephesians 6:10-20 Rambling...I thought I'd get over it after high school! - October 06, 2004 OK, so I haven't written in awhile... - September 15, 2004 Graduate Sunday - May 17, 2004 Crazy - May 14, 2004 Too much - May 13, 2004 | New Mistakes Old Mistakes Extras SpyCat Design D-land |
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